Thursday, September 26, 2013

My Lolo is Little Unwell

For the first time in eight months, Lolo is down with cold (which she apparently caught from me) and for the first time she is fussy. This worries all of us, me especially when I can't bear to see my otherwise super-duper active girl drooped to a collapsed figure. 

Last to last night, she had bad fever and her body felt like a furnace. We were awake at the wee hours of the night nursing and entertaining her. Motherhood prepares you for beautiful times but times like this are hard to be battled. Thankfully, she is a little better this morning. I just hope she is even better as I sit in office writing this article. 

I still haven't learnt to complain about being busy round the clock, but often I wish there was something different even for a day. Like I wake up to the same routine and end with just the same routine. Should there be some offers of change, I am made to think not twice but hundred times, ultimately meeting with a flat denial because I can't afford a change!

I was home full-time baby sitting just two weeks ago. Lolo and I woke up at the same time, we were play-dates the entire days and we had so many more things to do together. When we got bored staying inside, we went out and talked to the wind. My Lolo is a big fan of nature that she loves open air and insists being taken out most of the day.

Yet, for the last few days Lolo looked pale and deflated. It even showed some eye-bags. Her chubby hands became lifeless. She wouldn't eat or feed, not to mention her motionless figure. Looking at her, it made me wish she never had to undergo any such moments and like I wrote a friend, how I wish they spoke sooner! Right now, it's like she has million things to complain but she can't and we have to assume ourselves.

People blame that I am a first-time fussy mother. I won't buy that easily. I am completely freaked out because my baby is still a baby and what I can care now is what will matter for the rest of her life. This sounds sacrificial but yes, that it is. Over the last two years, I have kept myself put for many many things, simply for the reason that my baby deserves her childhood to be the best. 

And when she is unwell like this, it makes me think more defensive than ever. I know sitting in office and pretending to work while my entire mind is with her is also a fallacy. So, I got here and am leaving this note to my girl - "Get well soon Lolo and give us the sound of laughter!"

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Bhutanese Bloggers e-Conference

Well, I am to take a break from my usual cribs about being Lolo's mother and join fellow bloggers in celebrating this e-blogger initiative taken by Rekha Mongar and respond to the invitation sent by Ngawang Penstar. Alright.

1. Why did you start blogging in the first place? And what’s the story behind your blog title?
Of the few intimate passions I claim to have, writing is one of my favourites. (I know I dream of writing a book one day...ha-ha!). Back then, I wrote and printed the stories, until I stumbled across the free online blogging site. So I began this blog (http://www.luzee.blogspot.com/). 

Initially, I had titled it as "Luzee and her Hidden Heart" because I found myself literally talking to my blog what I couldn't express in person to another. It was like I opened my heart and exposed everything bare. But with the birth of my daughter (and myself as a mother), I wanted to dedicate it to my daughter. So, I rephrased the title as "A Mother's Journey Thus Begun". One day, she should read through and understand how much I had celebrated this promotion.

2. How long have you been blogging? Where are you based?
Mmmm, I think I began blogging sometimes in 2006 in wordpress. The current blog must have been there since 2007 (although I have shamelessly deleted all my earlier posts! Blame this inconsistency in me!).

I am very much in the capital Thimphu. But I take my blog where-ever I go, because my emotions are more when I am away from home.

3. How do you schedule your blog post? Daily or weekly? Or as and when inspiration strikes you?
I would love to update it almost every day if possible but with this new set of responsibilities, I admit this is entirely not possible. So, I tend to update when I get a new surge of inspirations or beauties to talk to my daughter in the form of words.

4. Does your family and friends know about your blog?
I always thought I wrote something and nobody knew about it but surprisingly I seem to have a lot of readership! Like one time, a journalist walked into my office screaming if I were 'Luzee the writer' and that she religiously follows my blog!

And another time, I had written about family conflict which again became viral (would appreciate if any of my readers retained a copy since I had long deleted it - I want to re-read it again!).

On a positive note, yes I think I am amply read by my family and friends.